Thread:Hyocaso/@comment-28818979-20160818071456/@comment-28209103-20170531141703

it's voluntary reaction when I feel powerless.. usually I have time to calm the shit down but not this time.. like seriously why everytime Shuten comes up I have to be this busy?! Last year I had to go to Thailand for job, this year it's only one week during one of the busiest period of the year.. like wtf? can I try rolling for Shuten in peace? It's feels like Shuten always aimed at helter skelter part of my life to appears.. fuck this shit..

That actually my usual state of mind but like Meltlilith case or previously TamaSol case, and even way before that Tamamo case.. there's just time where I can't calm down for some time.. for stuff like this I need time to calm the shit down otherwise like Kiara case I'm pretty much fucked thanks to overwhelming desire.. like once my head is clear and I stop giving a f*ck they'll come naturally..

however I'm torn because to reach that state for waifu materials usually I started it with certain routine.. that is burning every single Ticket and Quartz I have in abadon.. but summer is around the corner.. shit shit shit.. just kill me..