Thread:Hitsuji Mamoru/@comment-31574368-20180124060142/@comment-28209103-20180215062800

@Hitsuji : ranting is a good practice, I believe saying evwrythings you wanna say is bettet than bottling in up inside.. in your particular case can you consult with your superior bout this dissatisfaction?

Sometimes it's better to speak up on front when you see something unpleasant early rather than latter.. it depends on your superior but most people can be coaxed by saying the right thing at the right time..

I have a hunch that you're the type that prefer to avoid problem rather than gping at it upfront, too low self esteem because your self conciousness are high. It's not a bad trait to have but it had the worst affinity with the self-confident type. Personally I would tell your superior to show personal appreciation for your type to keep you around... but that's from my usual POV.

In any case there's 2 approach you can take here not counting the passive "be patient' approach.. either you get your self esteem high and demand better treatment or you start to hatch nefarious plan and try to badmouth the other party that may or may not solve the case..

Also I have another hunch but your case remonds me of that time where I meet this good guy, he's capable and responsible but he doesn't have college degree. I love how he worked so I gave him a study leave to get his own diploma and raise his position as Manager. Thing is later I found out the hardway that there is a problem.. he's not used to stand above others and such are looked down even by his subordinate and hardly capable of dishing out order..

The moral of the story is this, environment shaped human, if you're used to be a subordinate that mentality will stick, once you are self-concinous bout your low self esteem then nothing will change even after you even out the odds.

I have to let him gey used to stand above people, I need to teach him to be selfish and keep motivating him for 4 months straight on every occasion I can spare so that he could fix his low self esteem.

Point is.. your personality are not final. I'm used to be like you, extremely careful, pessimistic, ultra self-con.. and probably I still am.. thing is I am a rebel since youth.. I however are used to give order because I'm prideful.. not exactly the best trait but hey just like Knife can be used to kill people or making you an ally of justice, how you use your trait is up to you.. then again I guess there's little differences between killer and ally of justice.

Well anyway this is a random rant from "all-knowing" guy on Internet.. it hardly matters. But one thing for sure, to do anything in life you need 3 things, knowledge of your own strenght, knowledge of your goal, and the will and cunning to reach it..

I should probably add that knowing your strenght means does not means abiding to status quo.. rather you need to push yourself to your limit.. the key is to never say I can't but rather I never tried it and probably I could if I try it. If you ended up suck at it then that's fine that is your limit.

Here's my own life example, I f'cking sucks at drawing.. I tried to take course, I drew all the time in class during my youth, I even try to learn paint.. nil. My drawing is no better than average teenagers doodle.. I could really see the differences of progress between me and the other guy in the course and for the first time I admitted that I'm suck at something.. or generally speaking I'm clumsy with my hand.

Everytime I saw good pic or have good idea for fanart I always reminded of my own weakness and can't help but lament..